The Desires of Our Hearts

Now a friend of mine and I have been discussing things this week never really telling the other what was wrong but we seem to just be on the same page. She sent out an email this morning from Psalm 37 and I was also reading in Psalm 37 this morning too. Imagine that. Now on to what I was reading, was Psalm 37:4 which states Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart... Lets not all jump up and down because God does not just do what we want when we want him to you must read on. In the next verse, it says "Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass." On down in verse 7 it says "Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently on him.... Now looky here. Here is where you have to do your part. You have to commit your way unto him and have faith in what you want. I was reading online on a Christian blog where a man was telling his story and the title of the blog was actually "The Desires of your Heart".. Ok God, I am getting it now. Anyway, he was having a disagreement with a friend of his because the friend told him that he wanted a son and that God was going to give him a son because that was the desire of his heart and the guy writing the blog was like don't make it sound so simple, well his friend Charles said that I desired a beautiful wife and I got one, I desired two beautiful daughters and was blessed with them, and then he said he desired a son and God would bless im with that also. Charles died before he could have a son. Now the guy writing the blog was like now it does say that in the Bible but you have to work too and do your part. His story was a beautiful one that made me think about my own life. a passage that stuck out to me was " God does mean what he says; when you commit your ways to hom he will give you the desires of your heart, and not desires that he suddenly places in your heart, but your deepest desires, desires that have been there all along, desires you may not even know are there, desires that have been buried so deeply that only God can see them." It made me think about my own life and some things that I desire. Yes I asked God for these things but then I jsut lost my faith because it seems like after I asked for them that things got worse and not better and I was so discouraged about it but for some odd reason that verse was on my heart today and the most important part is that Yes God does want me to have the desires of my heart but I can not feel defeated every time something does not happen the way I want it to right then you know. That is not showing my faith. I think today I am going to write a letter to God and place it next to that Bible verse so he can get an understanding of where I am coming from and what I am trying to accomplish. God reaches me on the web so I like to writ so I have to write to him from time to time. Love you guys...

Did You Really Just Say That to Me?

I just had a conversation with my friend Danette about negativity... I know if I take something to her we can talk about it without getting all deep and stuff. I was telling her that I was talking to someone about a problem I was having and how the answer was always something negative. Never well pray about it and it will get better. They brought God into the situation but it was more along the lines of give up what you want and ask for this. God says in his word that he will give me the desires of MY HEART... Key word: MY. Only God knows my heart and if he has promised me something no matter what it is then I will have it. It may not be right now but I will have it eventually when he feels that I am ready. Sometimes we feel like we are ready for things and we are not and God is testing our faith and then we let the thoughts of others cloud our judgement. What kinda mess? If you really think about it is the person really being a good friend by feeding you negativity? I mean we have all said negative things to people in a situation but we learn and we grow and sometimes people do not grow with us. I have had to just let some people in my life go. If they were meant to be there then God will bring them back to me. Simple as that.. If not then their purpose in my life has been fulfilled and it is time to move on. I think I have talked about three different things all in the one post. I am tired. I counsel the elderly and you would think mentally I am 92 sometimes.. Until next time my loves...

Are You Ready to Submit

We were having an interesting conversation the other day about Ephesians 5: 21-33. I am not going to post what the verses say because you can do the legwork yourself but it is talking about submission and loving and respecting each other in marriage. The question to the women was were you ready to submit. Now as valid as that question was coming from a man, as you read the passage for yourself you will see that the man plays a vital role in that submission. It clearly says that the man should be the head of the wife as God was the head of the church. Now we all know that God handled his business but he said that is what a man is supposed to do in marriage. So why was the question not are you ready to submit yourselves to one another. Men are supposed to love their wives as they love their own body meaning providing for her as you would yourself. The conversation took a turn from there. As a woman, I am ready to submit myself to a man that is ready for me to submit to. Not saying that I am going to be someone's flunkee because I can take care of myself but you know what I mean. Respect goes both ways. A woman has to allow a man to be a man but a man has to allow a woman to be a woman as well and cherish her how she is supposed to be cherished. I think in relationships we take certain things as well as people for granted but the Word is clear as day. Having someone in your life that truly loves you the way that God meant it to be is a blessing within itself but sadly and oddly enough some people realize that they had "the one" when it is too late. I found the conversation to be very interesting and wish you all were there to participate.

Wow, Really?

You know how I said a few days back that God had been sending me the same Bible verse over and over again so I decided to spend some personal time talking to him abut the verse and I did what the verse said do. Lately since I have had a little chat with him, the things I discussed were starting to appear. Not in full manifestation but to let me know that he heard me and if I stayed faithful and prayerful that he would bring what he promised me to pass. Sometimes it is hard to listen to God. If you refer back to the first sentence, you will see that he has to send me the same verse 3 times for me to be like "Oh, I get it?".. I guess he knows that I am a little slow sometimes. I am glad that I serve a God that knows me personally. I am not the type to always get it when I read something or hear it but when I get an email I am on it and all three times the verse came to me through email. Gotta get to you the way that suits you best. One day I will reveal what I have spoken to God about but not now. Will keep you in suspense like he does me. Until next time.

On Time God or Right Now God

I have been emailing a good friend of mine back and forth this morning just talking about some things in life. We do not have to go into detail about what is going on but a nice conversation about God is needed sometimes. I remember a time when I would hang out with her and we were all about getting to the club on the weekend and not really worried about much else. We just lost contact. No reason why. No one was mad or we didn't have a falling out or anything. Well I am convinced that god separated us to deal with each other as individuals before he brought us back together as friends. We are on some different stuff right now than we were before you know. We have different worries and different goals and God brought us back together when he felt it was right not when we wanted to. Why is that so hard to grasp in just every day life? I know that God has promised me something because he has sent me the same message a million and one times but in the back of my mind some days I am like why can't I have it now. It kinda makes you feel like someone is dangling your favorite candy in your face but tells you that you can not have any right now, you have to wait until later. How do we know that if we eat the candy right then that it will not make us sick but if we wait until later when the food has settled then we can enjoy it. Simple analogy but that is how God is. We want a right now God instead of an on time God. God wants to give us the desires of our heart but only when all parties are ready and if it is in his will. If it is in his will for you then you will definitely know. All you have to do is ask and he will tell you. He has told me plain as day but still the selfish side of me just does not want to wait knowing I need to. I guess we have to learn the hard way because God will let us have what we want sometimes when we want it just to show us his power and that we need to wait on him. Lord knows I am glad he makes me wait on some things because I would be in a hot mess if I didn't. It says in the Bible that you should wait on the Lord. Sometimes waiting is not easy but it is best...

Discouraged

Have you ever just been so discouraged that you just don't know what to do? I have been feeling that way lately and I do not know why. I know what God promised me but as the days go by it seems like it is getting farther and farther away. Test of my faith maybe.. Well some days I will get an F... Sometimes I wonder how can I have faith in a situation that seems to be all to pieces all the time. I asked God a question, he gave me an answer and no one says that all is going to be well in the land after he says ok. It could take a year to come to pass or it could take a few days. I know God knows what is best for me but it is hard to keep your eyes on the prize when it keeps moving all around. LOL It is really time for me to stop doubting my God because he is not giving me what I want when I want it. He may just be getting everything ready for me to have and when it is time and the timer goes off then I can have it. Not a second before. I guess I should just stop being pitiful and prepare myself for the things GOd has in store for me. Had to give myself a pep talk today.. Lord help. LMBO... I am truly a mess some days...

Blah

Have you just ever had those moments where you feel blah? There just really is no word for it other than that. I have just been in a keep to myself kinda mood lately because when you deal with things sometimes your business is just that... Your business. There is no need to talk to anyone about it other than God but you just need that sense of peace and meditation time. Normally that is the time that I use before my appointments start. I come into my office and close the door like normal and get my paperwork together and reflect so I can get through my sessions and go home. Not every day is promised to be a good day for us. Today is just one of my not so good days. I have been in prayer and meditation about some things in my life and I know that God is working them out for my good because he promises that he will give me all the desires of my heart if I serve him and keep his commandments. Keep his commandments.. Wow.. That is a challenge. It is not that you do not want to but some days are easier than others especially when you feel that the weight of the world is on your shoulders. I just have those moments where I do not want to talk or be bothered and it seems like that is when everybody else has something to say ALL THE TIME. You do not want to be rude but my facial expressions seem to tell you exactly what I am thinking at all times. Well my day can only get better because it sure can not get any worse. Until next time my loves...