I'm Back

I have not had much of a desire to write for a while. My best friend passed away a few months ago and I ultimately felt like a piece of me was gone. It took me a while to reciver but I have moved to the point of acceptance. There has been so many things that has happened lately all of which I seem to pray about daily. I know God hears my and knows that my tears are not tears of doubt in him but tears of frustration. Some days I just do not seem to understand why I go through what I am going through but I know that God is in control and I must continue to trust him and allow him to guide me because I know he does not make any mistakes although in reality it seems like he does though. You know in an impatient world we always want instant results when we know that he makes us wait on things sometimes because we are not equipped to handle them. Tonight I am sitting just thinking and writing because I have some decisions to make and I thought it would just be easy and I could just go on but for some reason I can not. I know that God is dealing with me because it is almost 1 in the morning and I am up writing on my blog knowing that I should be sleep right now. I am seeking clarification on some things and I hope he provides that for me while I am spending some quiet time seeking him... Love you guys