Boxing

I have never been a boxing fan but I would watch Mike Tyson back in the day. I just never understood the importance of the sport in order for it to be interesting to me. you put two men in a ring until one of them either gets too tired to keep going on or it is a TKO. For about two years in one aspect or another, I feel like I have been caught up in a boxing match that won't end. I feel like I get knocked down and I get back up thinking ok you've got this and then I get punched in the face. Next time the gut and I am on the ropes fighting to keep standing. I am not sure how much longer I am going to have to fight but I make sure that I get back up and keep at it. I serve a God that says to have faith even in the midst of my trials and tribulations so I must keep fighting. I know that if I have faith and stay in the fight, he will come and get me when it is time. See, if it were up to me, I would waive the magic wand and everyting will be okay and go back to the way things were. Back when I was happy and full of life. It is not meant to be that way because even on the days like today when I am feeling my worst, I am still blessed beyond measure. Even though I am not where I was in life, I know that I am not supposed to be. God wants more for me. He wants to give me better. How can I have better when I keep latching on to things of old. We never really understand how or why God does something and we are really not even supposed to. All we should do is pray and say God you know what "I know you have this under control now so I am going to sit down and keep being faithful to your Word until you tell me the next move". I said that pretty easily but can I live it. It is really hard to live by and who knows that better than me. A person who loves control. I want to have control over all aspects of my life from being finished with school in a certain amount of time, getting married, buying a house, etc. Absolutely non of them have worked out the WAY I PLANNED IT TO so I guess it is time for me to sit down and let God drive and for me to be a passenger. I am going to make sure that I put my seatbelt on though because I have no clue where he is taking me and he may drive fast.... Love you guys... Until next time...