Our American Idol

A guy from my home town was named the 2012 American Idol. I have had the pleasure of meeting him as well as hearing him play so it was really sweet to see him on TV living his dream. I worked with his sisters and his family has such a sweet and humble spirit. One of his sisters runs Mission Change which does a lot of work for the community. Now although he had a great opportunity that only a select few have received there is always a lesson to be learned. I guess it is really true that there is never a testimony without a test. God has a special ways of taking us through a test without us even knowing sometimes. Here it is, a guy from a small town going to audition to live a life doing what he loves best. From moment one he won the world over not only with his voice but with his personality. All throughout the competition, the judges and the world were giving him advice on things he could change about himself to be better but he never waivered and stayed true to himself. Never once did he say well since so and so said this let me change this up for the next week. God wants that out of all of us. He wants us to stand up for what we believe and never waiver from being true to what we believe in our hearts. I am sure that people told him he would never make it but when you truly know God for yourself, you know that if there is a desire in your heart and you have faith and live your life according to God's Word he will always keep his promise to you. You can tell that he has the spirit to do great things and reach a lot of people through his music. One of the sweetest moments of the whole competition to me was after he was named the winner and was singing what is to be his first single, he could not even get through the song because emotion took over as reality was setting in for him. As the tears began to roll, he left the stage and went to hug the people that have stood by him the most (his family). It was such a sweet moment to see the support and love they have for each other. A true testament of faith and perserverance and I pray that he reaches people in a different way through song.

Changes

Wow... It has been a minute but so many things have changed in my life since the year began. God is just taking me through so many things lately sometimes I feel like if I blink I will miss something. A little over a week ago I lost my job and the first thing people tend to ask is "how do you feel" or "what are you going to do now" without thinking that you have already answered these questions in your mind and do not feel the need to speak about them every day like you have nothing else better to do but focus on the negative. That is a sure fire way to allow a situation to take you over. I said to a friend at the beginning of the year that I was going to have a new job in March and my final day at my old one was March 1st. Now I did not know god was going to remove me from that one but hey, if that is what it takes for me to get to where I need to be then so be it. I amready to take the world by storm and I am still getting paid my full pay until the end of next month so hey, it is a vacation before embarking on my new journey. At least that is how I like to look at it anyway. If God did not think I could handle the transition he would not have placed me here so I get up and enjoy my days and move right along. I have also had some things happen in my personal life as well but I am letting him work all of that out as well because it says that he will give us all of the desires of our hearts and I am a firm believer that God wants us to all be happy and that he saves his best for us not the mediocre mess we attach ourselves to so if he takes something away, it doesn't always mean that he will not give it back but if it is something that he has taken away permanately, then it is best for us to just let that go as well. Sometimes God takes things away from us until we are ready to handle them or handle something better so I do not worry about things as I would before I got a better understanding of Gods word but now I am like ok God... Let's get it... I am ready to conquer whatever task it is you have for me right now. If I have to cry then let me cry and wipe my tears away so that I can get right back on the battlefield. Love you all... Until next time... Stay prayerful...

The New Year has Begun

I have been MIA from my blog but for good reason. Reflection, life, and school has kept me busy but I would like to be able to write more and now since I have a little time, here we go. The New Year comes around and people seem to get all excited about change. I have always wondered why people feel that things are going to change instantly because it is no longer 2011. Did God send you a special message that stated that the New YEar would take away the problems of the old one? If he did, may I read it. I would like to think of the New Year as a fresh start but to be honest with you, every day is a fresh start. A new day to accomplish new things, meet new people, talk to God more, spend more time with your family, etc. People should strive to be their best every day that God wakes them up.. I for one take my days for granted sometimes but I have learned as I have gotten older and more in the Word that there our days are numbered and we do not know when our last day is. So as some make resolutions so to speak, do not forget the one person that loved you enough to allow you to stay.

I'm Back

I have not had much of a desire to write for a while. My best friend passed away a few months ago and I ultimately felt like a piece of me was gone. It took me a while to reciver but I have moved to the point of acceptance. There has been so many things that has happened lately all of which I seem to pray about daily. I know God hears my and knows that my tears are not tears of doubt in him but tears of frustration. Some days I just do not seem to understand why I go through what I am going through but I know that God is in control and I must continue to trust him and allow him to guide me because I know he does not make any mistakes although in reality it seems like he does though. You know in an impatient world we always want instant results when we know that he makes us wait on things sometimes because we are not equipped to handle them. Tonight I am sitting just thinking and writing because I have some decisions to make and I thought it would just be easy and I could just go on but for some reason I can not. I know that God is dealing with me because it is almost 1 in the morning and I am up writing on my blog knowing that I should be sleep right now. I am seeking clarification on some things and I hope he provides that for me while I am spending some quiet time seeking him... Love you guys

His Lady

I have just have so many things on my mind lately from love to career. Sometimes I ask myself am I making the right decisions or am I going the wrong way... I have been reading this book by TD Jakes named His Lady and it covers some of everything that you could feel from anxiety to worrying and it gives you a scripture to go with it. Well this morning I was just emotionally all over the place and I got to the section of the book about "longing" and how we wait for things and how our minds just focus on that one thing so much that we lose sight of everything else. The verse that went with it was from Luke 11:9-10 and reads "And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for. Keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks receives. Everyone who seeks, finds." And the door is always opened to evryone who knocks." Well I felt slapped in the face. Sometimes we can take a situation and just focus on it so much until it feels like our eyeballs are going to pop out of our head. I mean really. I am so glad that my relationship with God is so special that he knows just how to reach me and when to reach me. I could not sleep last night worrying about a situation and a certain aspect of my life but now I feel at peace because I know that God has placed what I need to do in my heart. Often times we lead with our minds and think we know everything and guess what.... We mess it up worse than what we did before but God always looks at our hearts and maybe it is time I pay a little mroe attention to what is in mine and focus on that and not what I think all the time. Textbooks prepare me for work but the Bible prepares me for life and maybe I should spend a little more time reading that than other things. I am finding out so many things about myself that I never knew before by just spending a little quality time with God.

Death

Death has seemed to attack my family this week. Two deaths in two days both sudden and tragic. It seems like a movie and then when the credits roll everything goes back to normal but undoubtedly the movie is still playing. Then on top of all of that a friend sent a prayer request email for a friend of hers who's mother is in the hospital and not doing all that well. I can only imagine what she feels like or what she is thinking or how her reactions are because I have never gone through anything like that with my mother. Generally a mother is the backbone of the family. The comforter, counselor, cook, maid, etc so how can one react and deal when the source of their being is now depending upon them for strength. My friend has lost both her mother and her father and from what I can tell they were great people because she has a beautiful spirit and has been a great friend to me but I know how big her heart is and that she is constantly reminded of her own loss when other situations strike that are close to her. There are really no words you can say to a person to make it all better or to ease the pain or stress. Sometimes it is like you just want to look up at God and throw your hands up and say what now. WE generally do not understand his motives until after the fact but still in the moment it is hard to stay faithful to the Word when everything seems to be going all wrong. The only thing I can offer to her right now is prayer that Gods will be done for her and her mother and that they have strength to endure whatever it is he decides and gives them a sense of peace over the decision. Love you guys!!!

The Wall

We had such a good time in church yesterday. I think this was one of the best times we ever had. Before the service started our pastor gave us an opportunity to write down the things we needed God to either change or bless us with in life like our financial situations, relationships, vehicles, house whatever it was on your heart that you need to tell God. Then we balled each item up individually and threw it at the Alter. You were officially leaving that problem to God to handle from that point on. Sometimes in life we build our own walls by constantly worrying and constantly trying to do things on our own. God does not want us to carry around our own burden. He wants us to give it to him for him to work it out for us. That is where we go wrong in life a lot of times. Always trying to do things on our own and messing it right up along the way. Yesterday, it was offical. No more talking or thinking about what is wrong in my life and trying to fix it on my own. I threw all of my needs at the alter for God to have because I know when he shows up it is going to be a mighty move because God has made some promises to me and just as long as I hold up my end of the bargain then it is all good. Until next time my people!!!