Confirmation

I have had so many areas of my life that need a revamp over the past few years it is craziness. It seems like everything happened at once. Relationship went all the way to the left, friendships were suffering, lost my job, finances were all out of order, and whatever else that could have possibly happened did. Some days I wanted to look at God and say "What did I do to you?" I mean really, everything was coming at me at once and then I had to stop and realize, he wouldn't allow all of these things to happen if there was not something else better in store. I have been out of work since March and I have managed to maintain in an economy where people are losing things left and right. Things are not like they were when I stopeed working but I am holding it together which is a blessing in itself. I have been able to just have fun. This is something that I obviously forgot how to do because I never had the time. I have been able to enjoy my son for the first time in a long time and spend quality time with him. Work has always consumed me. I am finally able to just enjoy going to school and not rush through it. Today at church a lady preached about your best days are yet to come and that we should lunge out and take what we want. Then I checked my facebook page and Joel Osteen said the same thing. Sometimes God reaches us through non traditional means but he reaches us just the same. Things are starting to look better and I am a believer that he didn't bring me this far to leave me.

I'm Sorry Isn't Going to Get It This Time

I never thought that a person that was so close to me would do so many things to not only hurt me but hurt others and see absolutely nothing wrong with it. After the demise of a friendship the other day, I received several texts stating that they were sorry and that they did not know what they said would hurt me. Now this person knew a lot about me and I find it truly hard to believe that they did not know that the situation would make me mad since they lie about everything else. They felt as though everything should go back to normal and that I should just forget it. One thing I can do is forgive, one thing I can't it forget. Sometimes people fail to understand the extent of what they do or they have lied so much they are just oblivious to the fact that they have done yet another deed to piss someone off. I know that god has been telling me for a long time to let this person go out of my life but I had such a hard time turning my back on a person that had been there for me through some of the worst things in my life. I guess sometimes when we do not take heed to the word God has to put us in a situation where we have to listen and that was it for me. For some odd reason, I expected to be sad or hurt but I am not. I actually feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder and I can freely just move on with life and leave that behind me. Everyone that you come across in life is not there for the long haul but it is sometimes hard to recognize when to just say your purpose has been fulfilled and it is time for me to just let go. I guess I have had to learn a hard lesson and in the end it will be okay but I will make sure to really listen to God more and seek him on decisions.